That's up to Him

In a book I’m reading called How to Worship Jesus Christ by Joseph Carol, he shares this story:


On one occasion, I loved in the home of a woman who had seven children and a very unsympathetic husband. She had lost two other children at birth. Though she had a large home o care for and attended to the family business in her spare time, I never saw her disturbed once. There was always the fragrance of Christ about her life, and I marveled at it.

While staying in her home during a conference, one morning about five o’clock, I noticed a light filtering in past the door; so I opened it very quietly and saw this women kneeling by her piano. I quietly closed the door. The next morning the same thing happened, and the next morning the same thing again.

So, I asked her, “What time do you rise to seek the Lord?”

She replied, “Oh, that is not my decision. I made a choice a long time ago that when He wanted to have fellowship with me I was available. There are times when He calls me at five; there are times when He calls me at six. And on occasion, He will call about two o’clock in the morning, think, just to test me.”

Always she would get up, go to her piano stool, and worship her Lord.

I asked, “How long do you stay?”

“Oh, that’s up to Him.” When He tells me to go back to bed, I go back. If He doesn’t want me to sleep, I simply stay up.”

Am I willing to make that choice? I know that I desire to. I know that if I do He will hold me to it. Lord, give me the strength and desire to be able to make this choice, that I would make myself completely available to You when You desire fellowship. May I count all things loss and rubbish that I may gain Christ and be found in Him!